At 28 I have been through more than most people twice my age. I have somehow managed to live this long without living for myself. After losing my Mom in 2013, I knew all of that needed to change. Although, I have made some mistakes along the way my Mom’s death was in many ways my catalyst to this new me.
Anyone that has lost a parent knows that it its one of the most difficult parts of life that you go through no matter what age you go through it. Around the same time I was losing my Mom and pregnant with Arianna is when my Lupus and Fibromyalgia symptoms began presenting themselves.
I gave away so many different parts of myself up or away before I even knew who I was. I didn’t even realize it but I was living the best years of my life just to survive. At this point I just want to pick up all of those parts of me and start over with what I know now. I just got to a point where I was either going to fail and let it happen or I could regain some control. With everything happening at the time I had forgotten that I was the one in control.
I’m not really sure where this is going to lead, but this is me regaining that control.